Thank you both for your comments. I wrote this post within an hour of the diagnosis and feel a bit calmer now although I hate not knowing how bad this is. I was out of date with smears and am now kicking myself!! Jade- trying to focus on stories like yours - I'm not scared of a hysterectomy, happy to undergo whatever is needed. My big fear is that it is somehow untreatable. I do have a dull ache in my pelvis, not painful as such. Does anyone know if this is normal or serious?? Thankyou again.
Leila- I'm so thankful you responded, it would be great to hear how you get on, I'm thinking of you. I was also reassured to hear that you had an op booked so soon after your scan. I'd heard you have to wait for the results. I feel keen to get a treatment plan sorted- actually all I really care about is that I'm going to live!!! I can cope with anything except that worst news. I know it's imperative to be positive at this time but my mind is a bitch! I've taken the rest of the week off to be with family and pretended to be completely calm about it and they have been very much lead by this. I am a very positive person so as soon as I get the news that this is treatable I will go back to my old self. Thanks again both xx