I was diagnosed with stage 2B cancer a year ago and have undergone my treatment and was given the all clear in Oct last year, but I dont think its really hit me until now. A, of what quite it means or B, what it is i am really dealing with post it all. I pushed it all aside and had to stay strong as my dad was really ill and my sister was getting married. I didnt want myself, let alone anyone else, to know quite what was going on.
I think i need counselling or possibly just even someone to talk to but have fallen through the slates slightly i think as well. My GP keeps trying to refer me back to the hospital where i had my treatment but the nurse keeps pushing me back to the GP. I am feeling a little lost and am not even sure where to start. I dont know if i am feeling the way I am due to the whole cancer thing, knowing i cant have kids or just the emotions and everything I am now dealing with due to the early menopause (I was 32 when told I had cancer). That in itself has not been fun as I am sure you are all finding as well.
I have days like today where i am fine but I know deep down inside I am not the person I was.
Anyway I dont know if anyone else ever feels the same or has a massive delayed reaction like me. Or has ever had counselling and if so where i can go for that.