Mini rant alert!!
So so cross today. One of my close friends has been telling people about my diagnosis. She's an emotional lady and has been very upset by my news. Because she was so upset I said she could mention me to some mutual friends but have now found out she has told more people and my childminder which I am fuming about as I feel I should have handled that one.
Whilst I am not keeping the fact that they found cancer in my Lletz results a big secret I also don't want it broadcast. I had very early 1a1 in my Lletz so it is the c word but it is not that bad. I would rather speak to people myself to get the story straight. What has upset me is that those she has told have then contacted me with the whole I'm really sorry poor you attitude. I don't want this I want to be really positive and focus on beating this not feeling all sad and sorry for myself. I need this to be a positive message about look the smear test works make sure u go for one etc etc.
I asked her not to tell anyone else and she had a go at me saying she thought I was fine with everyone knowing! It now feel I need to apologise to her!