Feeling much better after my last post 'angry', have moved on and had a couple of days of me time.
Anyway I went to my radiotherapy planning ct scan yesterday, have to admit it was probably the most undignified moment in the whole of this tale. So I lay on this hard trolley in a gown, and they tell me that they need to scan me to prepare for my radiotherapy, firstly they tried to insert a cannula to try and hook up a drip to run some dye through me to make my veins etc stand out but after 2 attempts they couldn't get any of my veins to play ball so they decided it wasn't really needed and abandoned that idea and decided to crack on with the scan.
The next step was to insert a long thin applicator into my vagina (have to admit my eyes bulged at the length), they pushed it in and then strapped the bit that was hanging out to my leg, they said that the applicator would show on the scan and they could then see where the top of my vagina is, they then marked my skin with a marker in three places and stuck on 3 ballbearings on the marks.
So there I was on a trolley, with this long applicator hanging out, they all left the room and I just thought if anyone had seen me like this they would have though it was some weird sex game I was playing haha
The machine booted up and within 5/10 mins the scan was done. The radiologist and the nurses came back in and removed the applicator and they then tattooed the marks in place, which was a little painful, but I have to admit the spots aren't big. my little war medals :)
Anyway radiotherapy starts for me in the next couple of weeks so for now im just gonna relax, and not worry, at the end of the day my cancer has gone gotta make sure the bugger doesn't come back