Well I have my colposcopy this evening, I am literally shaking this morning, am not scared about the procedure but terrified he is going to get in there and tell me it’s cancer. Had an awful weekend, no sleep, lots of tears. Other half and I had a huge argument yesterday, we went looking for houses and I really didn’t want to go, he’s been very supportive but yesterday he was frustrated with me as I’ve been so down. He reckons it’s not normal to be this anxious. Because I’ve been referred with symptoms and not an abnormal smear (no results from that yet) I am guessing they will take a biopsy which will mean more waiting. I can’t stand this anymore, everyone just keeps telling me not to worry!