I have been for my colposcopy today and didn’t ask any questions that I had planned to and actually written down.
So my smear results shown borderline changes and HPV positive.
My colposcopy today shown very little if any changes at all (which I know I should be happy about about)
I got to look my my cervix on the screen and noticed it started bleeding, not loads but enough for it to drip down. And also 2 very tiny very white lumps at like 5pm if my cervix was a clock.
The colposcpist said he didn’t see anything that concerned him, or nothing enough to warrant having a biopsy taken and said I would be back on routine smears every 3 years. I know I should be happy, but I’m concerned that with me having this virus still that there is a chance, although a small chance that these borderline changes might change worse over the next few years.
I know I should be happy, but I’m a little confused that they monitor you yearly if you have the virus, but I’m now back on 3 yearly with having borderline changes and HPV positive
I have had Lletz in the past, and HPV positive since 2014! The only question I managed to ask was how long will it take for me to finally get rid of the virus, which he said ‘eventually’ and this did not fill me with much hope.
To make things worse they messed up my appointment and I had to sit around waiting to be seen if someone didn’t show up! So after building myself up for the colposcopy appointment, I kind of felt deflated and like I had a rushed appointment when I did go in.
I got a letter straight away saying everything was normal and discharged back to GP in 3 years.
I know no one can give me an answer, but I just feel like after all these years, giving up drinking for 2 years, never smoked and no sex for 2 years to try clear the virus - and I’m left in limbo, again! It’s literally got to the put that I broke down in the hospital because I can’t think of anything else and that it’s seriously taken over my life. Its all I think about, about how to clear it. What if it never clears? What if in 3 years I’m still positive and have to go back to colposcopy again? What if these borderline chnages progress in 3 years?
I feel like I’m going crazy with it all and become a blubbering, emotional, non-social mess all because my body is failing me in getting rid of the virus!
Apologies for the lost post, but I needed to vent to get it off my chest.