I’m an absolute nervous wreck at the moment so wanted to share my story in the hopes that someone can offer me some advice / reassurance. Apologies for the length of the post :(
I better start by saying that before any of this happened I was already on a waiting list for therapy for the health anxiety I’ve been suffering with for the past 2 years. My biggest fears being getting a life-threatening illness or one that stops me from being able to have children.
I’m 24 and had my first ever smear test on 7th July. I’d not noticed any unusual symptoms so didn’t give it a second thought afterwards to be honest and was completely shocked when 3 weeks later I received a letter saying that ‘high grade (moderate) abnormalities’ had been found and I had to go for a colposcopy.
I had the colposcopy on Monday (7th August) and the nurse said it actually looked like CIN3 - so severe, not moderate like my smear said.
Because she could see it would need treatment and I was so upset and anxious about the results, she agreed to do the LETZ there and then without waiting for a biopsy.
She did say that my cervix looked perfectly healthy and she couldn’t see anything that looked more sinister than CIN3 - but I’ve seen so many posts on this forum of people who found out after their LETZ that they had cc, and I’m absolutely terrified.
Since the day after receiving my smear result I’ve also developed pain in my left side groin which has moved around further into my stomach and the opposite way to the front of my thigh. It’s intermittent and fairly mild but is really worrying me as of course I’ve seen that it can be a symptom of advanced C. I’ve also had lower back pain on and off for a long time, particularly after walking / standing for a long time and this has also gotten a lot worse since receiving my letter. Praying this is just anxiety/stress related but of course I go to worst case scenario :(
I’m now waiting for the results of my LETZ and it’s absolutely killing me - I feel constantly on the verge of a panic attack, tight chest / hard to breathe, nauseous and have a really awful feeling that something terrible is going to come back.
If anyone can offer me any reassurance or advice I would really appreciate it. Have many other people had CIN3 that was just CIN3 and got removed fine etc?