I hope the ladies on this forum do not mind a male posting his feelings after his partner had treatment for CIN3 grades cells. Please let me explain my situation.
I have been in a healthy, happy relationship for a good 6 months; however, following her treatment for the CIN3 and the colposcopy she's been extremely frosty with me and has recently asked for a few weeks space away from me. I understand and respect her wishes but I am somewhat confused as I have supported her relentlessy during this unpleasant experience. I went to the hospital for the procedure and asked to watch videos online to understand in greater detail what she went through. I ensured we sat together and read the feedback from all the brave women out there who have also been through similar experiences. We both found it to be useful and reassuring. Despite this, a week on and she's panicking. She has asked for space away from me as this procedure has really knocked her confidence. She's concerned that she may never have children and I feel powerless. I have done my level best to support her and reassure her everything will be fine. She looked me in the eyes on the evening she asked for space and told me she loved me but I am now in a real state of disarray. Not having any contact and not knowing when the results will come through is leaving me feeling rather raw.
I am sad and lonely and I guess airing my feelings in a forum that's fundamental to her feelings, helps me a lot.
Not sure what to do or say.
Thanks for any forthcoming support and words of comfort.