Feeling a bit down at the moment and would be lovely to hear from other women who are in or have been in the same position i'm currently in.
I went for my first smear test late last year and had an abnormal result come back. I then went for my colposcopy and the doctor said straight away that it looked like it needed treatment. That alone made me freak out because I didnt think they'd be able to tell until the samples had been examined properly in the lab.
Expecting the worse, I have now had my results back saying its at the CIN3 level. I'm now just starting to feel like i've been really unlucky with it all. I'm 25 and I wasnt sexually active until I was 18 and have only had 4 sexual partners during my lifetime, i've also never smoked and would consider myself to be quite a healthy person.
My biggest fear at the moment is not the treatment itself (LLETZ) but how it will affect my fertility. I'm getting married next year and we're planning on trying to start a family soon after, i'm scared that our plans will be stopped before they've even started.
I just feel so alone at the moment, my family and fiance are as supportive as they can be but being told eveything will be ok and that theres nothing to worry about is easier said than done when you feel like no one else really knows what its like.
I know I should just be greatful its not a worse result and believe me I am. (My fiance's mother died of cancer and my own mother is currently in remission for breast cancer.) I just hear so many different things that worry me and dont feel like I have anyone to talk things through with.