I would really appreciate some advice, I am a bit of a state at the mo
My mum died off cervical cancer when she was 26, I was 4 and when dad died not long after I was left an orphan. My biggest fear is leaving my kids behind.
I have always had abnormal smears this developed into CIN 3 in 2004 and had the loop treatment. They recently discovered I carry the HPV virus and last December was CIN 1 but said theyvwoukd leave it. I am now 15 weeks pregnant and due a smear and am petrified that I am missing it. What if I develop cancer while pregnant and by the time they pick up on it 3 months after I've given birth it's too late?
Might be hormones or coz I'm thinking of my mum or leaving my kids behind but I am sobbing uncontrollably.
Is it true it develops quicker when pregnant. I have 2 children with a not verynice dad and one on the way with a nice man but the thought of leaving my kids behind is horrific.
I want my cervix removed after I've had the baby as I can't cope with the worry. Will they do this?
Please please help me. The cytology clinic aren't answering and no one seems to understand. I'm so scared, I don't want to end up like my mum and my kids to grow up without a mum like me. This has been hanging over me for 10 years, I can't cope with the thought of leaving my kids.