Hi I do have a long winded story I am 37 and have never had a smear till this year I was always so scared to have them as I was abused as a child so would have a mental breakdown at just the thought never mind doing one.
it came to a point where after 6-7 years of painful sex and 10 months of heavy bleeding in between my cycle I finally found the courage to go march this year the dic had to give me tabs to stop my bleeding so she could do the test I was a total mess during and for 10 days+.finally I put it to back of my mind then got a letter saying I had SD(sorry don't know how to spell it lol)
my doctor rang me the same day to go for chat that afternoon she explained I had to have a colposcopy as I was a mess during the smear she gave me some pills to calm me for the day of it they never worked I was shacking and sanxiously then on the way there I noticed it was a male doctor to say I was petrified is understatement boy bf just shouted at me when I said I could not do it if a male was going down there I got to the hozy there was no lady docs in arh lucky the dic was so nice and let a female nurse do it while he looked over on the tv thing as she needed so many under her belt to qualify he told me he thought I would have to have the cone op sure as eggs r eggs he was right I had the cone op and got results that I have cin3 and high grade cgin because my results came in as they was doing the July mdt meeting I have to wait till 21.8.13 it's an age my mind is all over place can't eat sleep or function proper so I went to see my dic today and she said she thinks the will strongly recommend a radical hysterectomy this now scares me again am I going to have other test first eg MRI scared having to go through the change don't really know what it is part from hot flushes and mood swings tho sex is not a big thing for me as like I said it been do painful for what seems like forever my partner does if they taking part of my flu away how can you still have sex
is there a chance still that I could get cancer if its all taken away or will it mean I won't so don't need these examinations anymore
sorry for long winded I could go on with the questions just want some answers from people who have been here as no one seems to understand I feel likit they treating my problems liktether are nothing I feel so alone right now and no were to turn if anyone out there that can help please do I would really appreciate it many thanks in advance xxx