reading this forum is really helpful in keeping positive and strong as there are so many wonderful stories and warm words out there but I'm feeling really scared and upset today and need to get it off my chest. I can't stop thinking about if the treatment doesn't work or if the cancer comes back. trying to take my mind of it but nothing seems to be working.
i know I should trust the doctors and they have been really positive saying that they are going for a cure But Im a 1b1 and they found lvsi which makes surgery a no go and recurrence a higher probability than if it wasn't there and I'm scared by it. I'm scared too that if it does come back, they are unlikely to be able to do more radiotherapy so what is left As an option. Reading the risks of other cancers associated with treatment and HRT (which ill need - I'm only in my early 30's) makes it all feel even worse.
i know I'm being a little silly and really should trust the Dr, try to stay positive and not worry to much (you never know what is going to happen in life right) and definitely stay away from the Internet but it's hard and I really needed to say this to someone (rather than keeping it all bottled up). I'm an emotional monster just now and whilst everyone at home is being really great, they just don't understand as its not happening to them.
thanks for listening x