Awaiting Biopsy Results for 3rd Colposcopy

Hello everybody,

I am new to the forum and have read of some of your stories, which has been helpful not to feel alone, as I have not told anybody about my situation except for my husband. He has been lovely and supportive, but can’t answer my questions!

I had my first abnormal pap results 5 years ago and was referred to my first colposcopy, where the doctor took a biopsy and the results came back negative, and I was told that I could come back in 12 months for my smear. Everything was fine until 2 years ago when I had another abnormal smear result and went in for my second colposcopy, which never resulted in needing further treatment. I went 6 months later for a smear to be safe, which came back normal. I have gone for another smear last month 6/2016 and it was abnormal again, so I’ve just had my third colposcopy yesterday 11/7/16. Nobody has ever told me if I have CIN 1 2 or 3, but I was told after my last abnormal pap that I have HPV and mild dyskaryosis. From what I have read online, I can only assume I’ve had CIN 1 as it seems to go away on its own without needing treatment… My questions are:

Does anybody know why it keeps coming back?
Does anybody know what I might have?
Has anybody had a smilier experience and can shed any light on this?

I am so confused by it all, and I was so upset at the colposcopy appointment that I feel I didn’t ask the right questions. The consultant ended up being a man, which I was not thrilled about, and he was rude and disinterested, kept yawning and mumbling during the appointment, and was not helpful at all and barely gave me any information. I felt as if he just wanted to get rid of me. And to top it off, he forced a speculum that was too big for me and I was so uncomfortable. The nurse kept offering him the smaller one, and he didn’t take it. In hindsight I should have spoken up for myself. Needless to say, I was in floods of tears by the time I got to the car with my husband.

I am 30 years old, and my husband and I have only just decided to start trying to get pregnant before I got this news. I now have to wait for the results to see if I need treatment, and I know I shouldn’t plan on getting pregnant until I know for sure that I don’t need treatment. The waiting is so difficult, and it has only been one day! It might make me feel better if anyone has any more information.

Thank you for taking the time to read my post! x