I've finally plucked up the courage to post on this site after days of reading posts and seeing how brave and inspirational some of you are on here!!
I'm 24.5 and had my first smear just over a week ago, and on Thursday I came home from work to a letter which said my cells were abnormal (high grade dyskaryosis) and I've got to go for colposcopy! I'm not ashamed to admit that all I have done since then is cry, worry and plan how I'm going to cope if I've got CC. I lost my mum to cancer (lung) 2 years ago and I cant help but think the worst and worry worse case scenario that I've got cancer and it's spread and I'm going to leave my 2 year old daughter behind! It's daft, but believe me I've thought of every scenario!
I'm also worried about having the colposcopy procedure, does it hurt? Does lletz hurt? I'm just truly worried of the unknown, and finding out of things are going to be ok or not! Truth beknown I'd in a way rather not know but I know I need to go and have it done! Did anyone else feel this way and how did you keep strong and positive?