i do know exactly how you are feeling. I go through this cycle of two weeks before my appointments I get really stressed out and worry constantly about them finding something. I cannot sleep or focus and get pretty agitated easily. Then my appointment comes and then I am so happy and relieved that everything was ok and all my niggles seem to go away. Then I am totally exhausted and need a week to recover and just rest, then I have about a week or so of not even thinking to much at all and life is wonderful, then I feel scared that I'm enjoying life and I start to think maybe they missed something. I then will have good days and bad days leading back up to my appointment.
Here is what helps me get through this...
1. Meditation and deep belly breathing when I am having bad days
2. Sound frequency therapy everyday before sleep. This seems to relax me quite abit. I have used different ones to help with all of my niggles.
3. Ranting to a friend over a cup of tea. not my hubby or family. My dear friend who know I just need to actually vocalize my anxiety. This seems to help if I acknowledge it. But, I don't do this to my hubby as then he gets stressed out.
4. Massage therapy to relieve the build up of stress. I go1 time per month
5. Come on jos and read or offer support to others as this helps me not feel alone. Everyone here is my rock
6 I have anxiety prescription for days nothing else works
7 my little dog, walking him seems to make me feel so good. The exercise and fresh air does help.
Anyways, what I am saying is this.....
find things that help you and make them a part of you life. If you are feeling to overwhelmed with anxiety don't be afraid to seek help with a councillor or ask your GP for something. A cancer diagnosis and treatment are a very stressful experience and what you are feeling is very normal but remember that taking care of yourself mentally is just as important as taking care of yourself physically.