I am all over the place emotionally but physically have taken to my bed!
i think the roller coaster has finally crashed! The bleeding I had earlier in the week has left me feeling completely wiped out, but also SO scared, mainly because I don't think I could go through it again, but also because it has made me realise that I really have this horrible thing wrong with me. I think I may have slumped into a bit of a depression, which of course is really not going to help. Whilst my scans were fine in themselves, the technicians didn't look at me afterwards and have convinced myself that that's because they saw 'things.'
i am trying to prepare myself for the treatment ahead, but all I have really managed to do is google a lot and order strange items off amazon. (Litter pick...what!!!???)
even the health binge that I went on has tailed off. I HATE green tea!
would love just to hear from some of you. What treatment has anyone had for stage 1b (I think it's 1b1)? Have any of you found out what has caused you to develop cc? I am so worried that I will have everything removed only to live with the fear of HPV developing anyway in the void (vault?)
any tips on preparing for treatment? I have taken Cheryl's advice and got some meditation and yoga Apps. My friend has told me to do pelvic floor excercises!
Lots of hugs to all of you, whatever stage you are at on your journey. I'm sure we all are better off for having jo's.