I'm not quite sure where to start as my head is in such a whirl.
I'd really appreciate talking to someone that has been/is in a similar boat to me because, as lovely as my friends and fam are being, I'd like to talk to someone who understands. Also don't want to let on to my friends/fam that actually, I'm terrified.
I'm 24 and recently had my first smear, got the results yesterday to say I have "high grade abnormal cells". It was a huge shock, a burst into tears as soon as I read it. Today I got the next letter to say my colposcopy is booked for 31st March, although the lovely nurse said she would call me if there are any cancellations.
I just want people to stop tip toeing and tell me the truth - does this mean I could have cancer? I know abnormal smears are quite common, however it's the "high grade" bit that is scaring me senseless.
I have for a few years suffered with cramps on and off at all times of the month and recently have had a constant upset tummy. I dismissed it before now, but now can't help my mind going into overdrive and worrying if it is related.
Please, had anyone had the same result and can you share your experience? Can you tell me what the colposcopy / laser / LLETZ is like?
I like to know all about things so I can be prepared.
I couldn't sleep properly last night and ended up leaving work early as my head is just all over the place, I feel numb, I think I'm in shock? But also feel like im being really over dramatic and am a bit embarrassed at my reaction.
I'm getting married in three months.