Hi Hula Hoop,
Just wanted to give you a big hug. I’m due my 6 months check up and just got a phone call from colposcopy asking me if I could come a week earlier, i.e. 11/4, not the 18th. I know I should be glad, someone has obviously cancelled or moved the appointments but it brought up this horrible feeling, you know when you’re due in there. I know I’m bragging on about myself but just wanted you to know that I can empathise, as the mild changes would probably be the second worst, after the c-word outcome of the colposcopy for me. It’s like putting your life on hold for the next 6 months and thinking ‘is it getting worse?’ I’m 27 next week and although not considering having kids at the moment, I would love to have them at some point. They already took a decent few cms off the length of my cervix so I am paranoid about potential miscarriages…
Sorry, I want to sound cheery and upbeat but having very though day today. Had a hemorrhage as a result of the 2nd LLETZ and I’m guessing it’s all just bringing bad memories. Also feeling bit like a fraud banging on about this, when there are ladies here in remission, or going through the radio/ chemo but it feels good to get it out of your system and I really do not want to worry my friends, my partner and especially my parents and this forum feels almost cathartic.
Please let me know how you’ve got on. Thinking of you.