I understand your worry and concerns, I was exactly the same. I had the letter saying my smear test results showed that further investigation was needed – it didn’t say whether it was mild, moderate or sever and because I was between GP surgeries, I didn’t know who to call to find out! At least you have an idea of what you’re going in with. On opening the letter, I burst into tears, I have honestly never been so frightened in my life.
I experienced high anxiety (even more because the hospital got my address wrong so I missed the first appointment they made for me!) in the weeks leading up to my appointment. I also did a lot of research – some good, some bad. What I did find is that severe levels of anxiety are common in women awaiting a coloscopy –apparently in some cases they’re higher than anxiety in those awaiting major surgery! I think it’s the unknown that gets to you, and of course the use of the word ‘pre-cancerous’. For me, it was my first brush with the C word and I was terrified. So your anxiety is normal, but please know that in the vast majority of cases, it’s unjustified and you’ll be fine.
The coloscopy itself? I guess everyone has different experiences, but for me, it was absolutely fine. The Sister who performed it had a chat with me first and reassured me that my abnormalities were mild, described what would happen and what would happen after that. She managed to calm me right down, so by the time I went into the room for the procedure, I was even laughing and joking! Hopefully they’ll do the same for you – if not, don’t be afraid to ask for a chat first, it really helps relax and calm you.
The coloscopy wasn’t at all painful, not even that uncomfortable and less embarrassing than a smear! The team of two women were so professional, friendly and understanding when I said I was scared. They took a biopsy – without anaesthetic – and I barely felt a thing. I had some mild cramping and a tiny bit of bleeding afterwards, but nothing to worry me. I have had much worse dental procedures!
I am now waiting for my results, yes, with anxiety, but much less anxiety than I experienced before. I take some comfort from knowing I am in the system and being cared for. If I need the LLETZ, it’s not ideal, but I’d rather get it done than be sorry. If it’s something worse…well, again, I’m in good hands. And I never thought I’d be able to say that so calmly a few weeks ago!
Please try not to drive yourself crazy with worrying – well, people told me that and I couldn’t help it! As other ladies have said here, most women are fine who go through this and the treatment is usually simple and quick. We’re very lucky to have this system in place – even if it does make us mad with anxiety!
I don't know about the coil but I seem to recall reading soemthing on here where a woman had had a coil just removed. However, i'm not the best person to advise on this. Your GP should be able to help you or they can explain at your appointment.
Keep in touch and keep sharing on here – this forum is a really good source of support xx