7 months on from lletz still can't have sex

I don't know what wrong with me.... I'm generally a very level headed person, but for some reason I can't get myself to have sex with my husband due to my HPV paranoia... We've been intimate and I've orgasmed ect, but no penerative sex. I now it already in my body dormant, but I read an article on here regarding viral load and now i can't move on.

My husband is so understanding, but think its starting to affect us now... Someone please help!! 

I think you just need to bite the bullet and go for it.  Just start very easy, no deep penetration just gentle and go from there. It's all in your head now your well healed. Maybe use some lube if you're nervous as it might make you a little dry.