I haven’t posted on here in a while, but I am now 4 weeks in to my treatment with two weeks left to go and I’m starting to feel like I’m hitting a wall. Which seems silly when I only have two weeks left!
I have never been a weak or depressive person but this past week has been a real tough one for me. I’ve had 4 rounds of chemo so far and 18 radio with 1 more chemo and 7 radio and 4 internal radio still to go. I had to have a blood transfusion on Tuesday as my levels had gotten too low and had my pre assessment for my overnight stays next week on Monday too which is scaring me esp for someone who has never been in hospital before!
This week has been so overwhelming and all the side effects are really taking a toll on my body now, which is hard when I see people in better spirits than me. But I know treatment affects every one differently and I shouldn’t compare myself to others. I’m really trying to be brave because before treatment started I was the most positive person and I was ready to fight this. Don’t get me wrong I’m fighting this to the end and I won’t ever give up but it just feels I need that last boost to get me through. Anyone else feel this way?