I hope someone can offer some comforting words. I know I don't have as much to deal with as some of you on this site, but I am new to this and only 26.
I had my 1st ever smear test back in June this year and it came back saying CIN2.
After I had my colposcopy results through, the letter stated I had CIN3 not CIN2. So had LLETZ on 30/08/2013.
I'm also currently waiting to see if I have endomitriosis and going to see a specialist on 8/10/13.
My main worries now are my low moods and how they are effecting work - and vice versa.
I started a temporary promtion job in July just before my colposcopy, so have been under constant stress from that aswell as worrying about my health.
I have been continuing with the job throughout all this waiting, had my LLETZ 3 weeks ago (2 weeks after my Nan died) and all the stress and worry just isn't getting any better.
I am still waiting for the all clear but still under lots of pressure at work and now I feel I've hit rock bottom.
My head is all over the place, I can't think straight and my boss doesn't even work in the same city as me for me to be able to speak to her properly.
I just feel overwhelmed with everything all happening at the same time. I feel sick that this is my future now, lots of intrusion and lots of waiting, worry and anxiety.
I just don't know what to do, I want to end this promotion and go back to a less pressured job but I don't even know where to begin to start explaining all this to my boss without her thinking I'm off the rails!