Diagnosed 25/11/2105 with 2b cc.
I really need some help to get my head around the news I received last week that my 1st initial cycle of 20 radiotherapy & 4 chemo have not made any difference to the size of my tumour so therefore the Bracytherapy was deemed no use to me and cancelled. I am halfway through a 2nd cycle of radio, 10 treaments & 2 more chemo. I finish on 12th Feb.
I am struggling to believe that the next 10 radio will come back with good news, I have been positive & focused through all my treatment so far but this has really knocked me sideways & emotions are running high. I believe it will shrink it but not fully give me the ‘all clear’ that I so wish for. If 20 can’t even make it shrink slightly how can 10 clear it? It’s in a more focused area so maybe there is a chance?
My consultant said after Friday I will be seen in clinic after 6wks but will not have any results for 3 months??!! I think my sanity will be tested to the limits & maybe my families too.
If this doesn’t work I cannot have more radio only chemo so I guess it would be a diffrerent sort from Cistaplin that I am currently having. I know we cannot be told it’s curable, their aim is to cure it but I stupidly thought that the initial treatment plan they gave me would miraculously ‘fix’ the problem, so all my positivity has gone & left me along with alot of my ability to hold my emotions in check, alot of tears this week
If anyone has been in a similar situation I would gratefully love to hear any advice or experience you could share with me.
Sorry for long post & thanks for reading.
Take care ladies & hope you are all coping best you can with your jouneys