12wks pp. scared

Hi everyone
I’ve not long given birth to the most amazing boy. Been for my smear today and nurse said before she did it “oh you’ll probably be called in after your history” I just burst into tears. Ive previously had abnormal results had the lletz treatment and Dec 2014 got the all clear. Now I’m absolutely petrified of going through the same again and having yet more time stolen from my baby from worrying. I am hpv high risk aswel so that’s always on my mind. I just don’t want this hanging over my life the way it is. I’m dreading the next 2-3 weeks. I just don’t know what to do x